sometimes i wonder what i live for? for who, myself, or for just the sake of it? i mean, do i really enjoy the state of life?
what i'm doing now is not what i like. well maybe just some things perk me upbut most of the time, i'm just sick and tired of everything.
i have so many things
yet so little time
how am i supposed to cope?
i live everyday like a routine; go school comeback do homework
i don't even have have time to do what i like
maybe it's just me
and i'm the one in control of time
well, life is going to be more stressful for me
everyday i look out to the sky, wondering what colour it'll be
and i saw that it was lavender today.
oh how highly unusual!
i'm looking out to the sky and wondering
like as though i'm living in a world from myself
haha i sound abitthe like Shubha:/
and i do not enjoy life.
how i wish i would just drop dead and die or smth.
i wish i could have a good, long sleep and just rest or something.
i really want this to stop.
but how can it? just move on you idiot. life's isn't a bed of roses dear. i know, but how can i resist?
how i miss those carefree days.
well it's all over.
it just doesn't help being helpful. when i do something out of goodwill she just doesn't appreciate it, and she just rattles on about it. maybe not, or maybe i'm being sensitive, but i guess everyone shares the same sentiments. and when she is unhappy with something she'll push all the blame to me as though it were my fault. if i had to correct it wouldn't then everyone would be scoring so well? wouldn't i have to spend so much time on it? some people are just so inappreciative. it just doesn't help being nice and kind. i tried to less dislike you, but your disgusting and impulsive behaviour made me dislike you even more, till a state called "hate" and "abhorrence".
give me a chance, and one by one i'll prove you wrong. i'll be able to make the most of it. it's just the beginning, i hope, i expect, i pray.
was quite disappointed. well, i know i'll have to work hard for it, but i guess i just want that. i wanted it so badly, i was praying inside my heart for it. well, it's all over and i'll just have to take it in my stride. with greater power comes greater responsibility, and it's just not going to come to me. but i'm sure, the opportunity will slowly fade away.
assignments. tests. projects. exams. i really can't take it.
someone just put a gun on my head and shoot me down.
and sorry to everyone these few days. i would just like to be alone as in i would just like to sort out my feelings and well, just be quiet. so when i'm happy i'll say hi or smth and if i feel annoyed i'll just pretend that i never saw you and walk past. so do understand.
crying a riverwhat's going on?i don't knowmaybe it's just you and meand i'm just being oh-so-sensitivei wish you'd just stop all the nonsenseand we'll be like what we once used to be
